Today our stake met together and the sacrament was passed to about 500 members. The order of business was that a Spanish ward was dissolved and some ward boundaries were realigned (last time was a year ago.) Our ward lost some members and gained others. I'm excited for the Spanish speaking families to join with our ward. It is a blessing to me that my family helped me to get my BA in Spanish at BYU back in 1976. I have missed being with Spanish speaking members. Our family served in a small Spanish speaking branch in Allentown, Pennsylvania in the 1990s. Our branch there truly valued us and we felt like family with them. It was hard to leave them. I have never felt so close as a church unit as I did there.
When I heard that we were getting a change in our bishopric, I was holding my breath. I was glad for the news of the change and I was going to tell my husband some of my thoughts about the old bishopric being released, but some of them were not things I should say. There was a repeated message by our stake presidency that we need to not let ANY negativity be part of us. So instead of talking to my husband about issues I had gone through with certain leaders, I decided to just take the issues to the Lord.. . I need to just thank the former leaders for their service, and do something kind for them.
I have to work at getting rid of negative thoughts and plead to the Lord to help me with that. For me it is sometimes hard to deal with certain people that disrespect me over and over. Because the hurt sometimes runs deep, I have to take my feelings to the Lord.
Thankfully we can fully tell the Lord what we feel. It helps me to remember that I need to forgive other people's twenty dollar sins because the Lord has forgiven me for bigger sins. But it still takes the Lord to remove the stings from the times I have felt wounded.
I felt a great relief that our ward Primary President told me she needs me this next Sunday. I was released from Primary (along with my husband) several months ago. It was hard, but we took it in stride. I sensed that I needed to keep a low profile in Gospel Doctrine and in Relief Society.
To be honest, it was very uncomfortable for me in both of those groups. In part, my daughter, Charity, needs me to not be in the class with her. She needs her space.
I felt comforted that I know the new bishop, and have had many positive interactions with him and his family. My goal is to strive to love all of my ward, and to let go of the past pain I have felt there. I definitely need the Lord's help to do it.
One book that is helping me to overcome bad feelings is a book by Wallace Goddard, Drawing Heaven Into Your Marriage. He says that the Atonement is everything in relationships. His book is so inspired!
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